I feel so at odds of late.
In the quiet times when I am by myself, and I am able to spend time being introspective – I can see that I am in a season of a very negative headspace – and have been unable to shift it…
I teeter between feelings of anger, disappointment, hurt, overwhelm, being used, sadness, irritation, being taken for granted, feeling unappreciated, cranky and just plain ole miserable!
The only times I don’t have tears welling in my eyes, Continue reading “negative headspace”
If my relationship with my mother was whittled down to a pithy facebook status – it would be “its complicated”
My mother is 92½ and her husband is 79, and whilst he is quite a bit younger, he is also unsteady and unwell, Continue reading “its a bit sad”
The fact that you’re struggling doesn’t make you a burden.
It doesn’t make you unlovable or undesirable or undeserving of care.
It doesn’t make you too much or too sensitive or too needy…It makes you human.
Everyone has a difficult time coping, and at times, we all fall apart.
During these times, we aren’t always easy to be around — and that’s okay.
No one is easy to be around one hundred percent of the time.
Yes, you may sometimes be unpleasant or difficult.
And yes, you may sometimes do or say things that make the people around you feel helpless or sad.
But those things aren’t all of who you are and they certainly don’t discount your worth as a human being.
The truth is that you can be struggling and still be loved.
You can be difficult and still be cared for.
You can be less than perfect, and still be deserving of compassion and kindness…
Almost every single day, something happens that reminds me that we don’t have long on this planet – and that maybe I’ve got a little less than that.
But some days it crashes in on me, and almost suffocates me.
I get so overwhelmed with such a deep fear and sadness, and such a feeling of helplessness that I almost can’t breathe.
And I feel like I’ve got so very little control of my future.
It makes for a decision that I just don’t know how to make….