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So here I am – officially over 3 months unemployed!!
Its time for a bit more of an in-depth run-down of what Life has been like for me for the last three months – so I’m going to break it down into sections to help me arrange my thoughts a little better…
You better grab a cuppa Continue reading “mega update”
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In part one of wild ride, I explained about some of the stuff that’s been going on for me of late, but the update was getting a bit long-winded, so here we are with part 2!
Over the last 6 months, my breathing has been getting worse – I have a regular irritating dry cough, and there are changes to my voice.
I’ve been putting off going to the Dr – basically because I knew I was getting worse, and didn’t really want to face that fact.
However last week it was finally time…
When I made the appointment, it was also planned that I would have an updated spirometry done whilst I was there.
So the day arrived, and I trotted off and did my spirometry, then went in to see my Dr.
My results weren’t brilliant, and my spirometry is now showing that I’ve gone from having a ‘moderate’ breathing issue, to it being ‘severe’.
My Dr advised that I needed to have xrays done, and that I needed to go to the city to see the Respiratory Specialist.
So I left with instructions in hand, and later that day went to the local hospital to have my xrays.
Not long after I got home, the Specialist telephoned me to say that they had an opening available on the March 7th – so I’ve taken it, and now need to wait to see what happens next.
Gotta say – I’m a lil worried – but am hoping for the best, obviously…!
Ready to cheer me on?
I told you a week or two ago in the smoking gun post, that I was going to do it – and now here I am!!
As of last night – I am a non-smoker.
A former smoker, an ex-smoker – call it what you will.
But as of when I went to bed last night – I am deciding to not stick another cigarette in my mouth.
I’ve said this before – and I’ve caved in.
Not because I’ve particularly wanted one, and certainly not because I’ve needed one, but because I have stupidly succumbed to ‘peer pressure’ (real or imagined!) and have taken it back up again – mostly because my Love has continued smoking.
This time can not be the same as previous times.
This time it won’t be.
Because this time I’m not “giving up” anything.
The fact is that I won’t be ‘giving up’ – I’ll be gaining!
Gaining back my life, gaining back finances, gaining back some health, gaining back the ability to breathe more freely, gaining back time!
Most people don’t realise how much time that smoking sucks out of the day.
And I fully believe that thats why a lot of people restart – simply because they don’t know what to do with all the time they suddenly find on their hands – and they’ve done nothing in the lead-up to stopping smoking, to ensure that they have strategies in place to combat the feeling of ‘what do i do with myself now‘….!
Personally, I’ve spent the last two weeks working out how I will combat those moments when I’d usually go for a ciggie – because all it is, is habit!
Its a habit to have one after a meal, its a habit to have one with my coffee, its a habit to have one with a glass of wine, its a habit to have one when on the phone, its a habit to have one before bed …… every.single.stupid.cigarette is a habit.
An idiotic lethally toxic habit that is poisoning our bodies, and sending us ever more quickly closer to the grave…
But ya know what?
Not any more!
I’m done!
Feel free to cheer for me – cos I sure am 😀 😀 😀
I’m DONE with the Monster on my back!
The breakfast of a champion non-smoker
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I’m having a bit of a ‘comparison’ dilemma at the moment and whilst I know that comparing oneself to others is never a healthy or helpful thing – I’m just not quite sure how to get it “out of my system”…
It makes it that much harder – because the person I am making the comparison with, is my Love.
My Love is 5 years older than me, and is a healthy happy vibrant person, who loves Continue reading “comparisons”
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